The First

The first boy I ever loved

Was in love with another

He didn't have eyes for anyone else,

Anyone else apart from her 

I watched his heart break 

When she said she too, loved another

His pain was so familiar

The exact image from my mirror 

This helped me gain perspective

And see the bigger picture

And realize that my pain

Made me a fixer upper 

And so I dealt with my hurt

By helping him get over his

A chance to help ease his agony

Was something I wouldn't miss 

And I think I got the closure 

That I needed for 4 years

In that one group video call

Where all our feelings became clear 

He still doesn't know 

That I loved him so fiercely

But that's what I get 

For acting so weasel-y 

Now all 3 of our hearts 

Are safe with new ones

The pain, long forgotten

Though we were all hurting once